I barely notice that these days, having a hard conversation is truly hard and devastating. I just had one with my friend. In the upcoming months, we’ve planned something in which aligns with our vision and how deep our longing for this one. We’ve checked some urgent things that need to be done. Unfortunately, it’s us humans who plan, and God who decides. For two days, I forced myself to craft words carefully and lay out the worst and best scenarios out of it. Some unplanned interruptions were shaking our feet, sometimes, not to make us feel small. But, to make us more powerful in gathering better data and information to make better decisions.
The idea about “make it exists and make it good later” hanged in my mind for some long hours. Well, then, it may existed in our mind, we tried to make it alive. But sometimes, there are things to consider, some shown in the unwanted timing, some shown deliberately in daily demands. The goal is to sharpen our character and our minds.
We had that hard conversation.
But the thing is, we learned how vulnerable our words can be. Instead of rushing to throw them out, we crafted that in our mind, being open to each other about the consideration of each mind, and tried our best we could to make the words reconnect the scattered feelings, the messy problem in our head. The outcome of this conversation isn’t to satisfy the feeling -thank God, we discussed that-, but the search for more solutions ahead. There are more beautiful things out there waiting to be discovered, and today we made a step to be vulnerable, to be open, and to reconnect the scattered ideas.
I believe that God will give us the wisdom we lack.
Thank you for reading.