Who will get the benefit of my struggle? No one, I'll just re-share the old same advice and proverb. After all these agony, I'll only highlighted the truest part of the struggle and repetitions definition and rewards. I've known this from the early start. I know the point and thing that will stressed this journey. And if from the start, this will be the entire point, why then I should volunteer on this journey?
I love being myself & the journey I'm in. The desperation I struggle is the price to experience the old proverbs, the life will reward you. What kind of reward? I don't know...
I, myself, still thinking about that. However, I don't want to rush, I don't want to skip any moment, I don't want less of time. Even if it means, I have to face more wars ahead of me. I don't want to get the shortcut, I want to fully experience on things a life could present to me. Even if it means more fire that burn my bones, what else could I expect from this world? I've bear the responsibility & the fire of blame in my shoulder. I've forgetten the taste of sweet and joy but I respect those two things. It's scarce to experience happiness recently, I mean, if I ask God for a nice thing or happiness, He barely sees my request. On the contrary, He puts more fire to my heart, body, soul, and bones.